I was in extreme stomach pain this morning when I wake up. The pain was very hard to describe. One can only feel and know the pain when he/she been through it. The pain is not the kind of pain that you have when you suffer from food poisoning. I was rolling around and goaning in pain. Gasping for breath also. I was clutching at my stomach and curling my whole body in a ball and clutching at anything that will try ease the pain a little bit bearable. Although this does not seems to work. Futhermore, I was starting to feel dizzy and nuseating from the pain as well. I felt that I was going to faint if the pain get any worse. I felt a strange feelings in my arms. It took a while for me to realised that my arms were tremebling and feeeling shaky from the pain. My whole body was also feeling very hot. It seems like that I have caught fire or standing very close to a place that have caught fire. It was not the kind of hot that one feel where in a delirous fever. There is nothing I can do to make the pain a little better. I cant stand, sit, lay or curl up in to a ball. You cant try to fall into a sleep also to forget the pain. The pain is unbearable. No one can imagine the pain that I was going through. The whole ordeal lasted for a full hour if not more. The hour seems to be a very long period of time. There is no way for others to make me feel comfortable other then taking pain killers. Giving warm water does not help other then easing the pain for a little while. I can only wait for the pain to go away by itself.
Although I have been through pain like this in the past. It was still very terrible. Although I have been to the doctors, the doctors cant do anything also other than prescribing to me pain killers. It seems to me that the pain cant be cured. The pain was recurring. I go through this pain sometimes after fews months. And after some time, it can be a few months or even years. The pain came back to me again like a devil or demon that will not go away despite how you chase it away. I some times think about wheather is there something wrong with my body.
You turned me into a doll.
